To "Stand" in HIM and What is to be "Humble"?

Many thoughts rambling right now.
My good friend "Sheesh-o-phlip, Bob!" prayed Over Me during a worship time and i have yet to know the "Word(s)" given to her. I would like to meet up with Sheesh... to find out what the Spirit gave her.
"Husband" called yesterday doing his normal rant, rave, blame and claiming to be forthright and in control. i was shaken for a while. He called @ 2PM while i was at work, in a new store not yet opened, with about a team of 6 or 7; i stepped away, but had to tell him that i couldn't get into a "fight" that i was at work and would call him when i was off in about 1 hour. it was only 30 minutes and he went on yelling and saying that once again it has to be "ibshells's" way as always but i better listen this time mean while i think he didn't take a breath for 3 minutes then his words were even more off base and then he suddenly can't hear me because my "blue tooth" isn't working right. I explained that i don't own a "bluetooth" (can't afford it) and would call him when i got home. which of course he wouldn't answer the phone. so i call my youngest who was at a friends house for the 3rd day in a row. It seems like a flag to me but not going there yet.
So i was shaken. One word that was given to "Sheesh..." the day before my "blindsided hit" was to "Stand" as i have noticed it being written also on the dry erase board that the Peace Officer pointed out to me (still there too - on purpose) and has been in a few lessons and songs of worship too.
I prayed, and worked on being calm before i got home to middle child, as it seems or has come to my attention, that she is always at the brunt of my tension and i seem to become short tempered with her and she is the innocent by-stander in all of this. so you see, I do see some growth in me, but that is also what i was thinking (boasting?) only moments before that phone call from "husband".
SO in this, noticing growth and not beating myself up for a change, was i not humble for that moment and the phone call was a humbling? i don't get it. when ever i seem to "get it" i fall on my face; what happened to "stand".
as the story goes on, i was only a bit tense with Mid child and explained we need to be calm for a few more and let me complete my "melt down" (for a lack of better words/thoughts)
We had planned a mother daughter evening with a cooking lesson which included shopping first. on the way to the store my melt down ended as i took my eyes off myself and listened in on a phone call she was having. (realizing she needs me and shouldn't be the victim in this any longer!)
So often when we keep our eyes on our self and forget to look at others. At these times we are NOT "standing" "humble" or doing "His Will".
Last night i remembered the "Church Family" who recently lost their father, head of household and Husband. Gone from this world as we know it. My Youngest is still on this planet "Alive". then as i opened to write this i was lead to the imagine of another with cancer and an upcoming surgery, now another who just had surgery, my worries seem smaller and i lift all of these fellow believers up to HIM, for He is the one in control, He is the one who knew the call would come (Pray for Mondays court date HIS WILL); that those children would be fatherless, the mother a widow, (pray for their continued Peace in Him that they would Stand) HE knew, He knows the out come of cancer and the court decision. (pray for healing put His will and her ability to Stand in Him no matter what His Will is) Do I, We, Stand in His everlasting, never changing Love and Faithfulness. Is it just a Choice to Humble and Pray, to ask and be Filled with the Spirit?

Time to check God's word......of course..... "stood" is in the first sentence. God's timing Is Always Perfect........

Day 23

Inquiring Is God’s Expectation

For who has stood in the counsel of the LORD, and has perceived and heard His word? Who has marked His word and heard it?
Jeremiah 23:18 (NKJV)

Prayer Focus: Jeremiah was challenging all the prophets who kept speaking on behalf of the Lord, yet did not know Him well enough to even hear what He was saying. Jeremiah’s charge against other prophets was that they were not telling the truth-that God wanted His people to turn from their wicked ways. If we are to speak out about the heart of God, that privilege comes with the expectation that we actually inquire of the Lord first! A careful examination of this verse teaches that we are to spend extended time in His presence (stood) in “intimate consultation” (counsel) until we truly understand what He is saying to us (perceived and heard), so that we can then obey and tell others (marked and heard). To speak on behalf of the Lord, but yet not know Him intimately or spend time in His presence inquiring of Him, is an affront to God. If we are to discover God’s plan for the transformation of our cities and the healing of our land, we must follow the example of the Lord Jesus Christ in John 5:19-20. Even Jesus inquired of His Father!

John 5:19 Jesus gave them this answer: “I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does.
Jhn 5:20 For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, to your amazement he will show him even greater things than these.

Worship the Lord as the One who invites us into intimate consultation with Himself.
Thank the Lord that in the name of Jesus you are welcome into His Presence.
Confess to the Lord the ways you have neglected to inquire of Him, yet claim to speak for Him.
Ask the Lord to teach you how to spend intimate time in His Presence, growing in your ability to hear Him.
Pray that your pastor and church leaders will learn to inquire of the Lord and intimately seek Him.
Pray that pastors and ministry leaders in our city will desire to inquire of the Lord together for our city.
Pray that the excuse of lack of time will no longer be a factor in keeping leaders from inquiring of the Lord.

Jer 23:22 But if they had stood in my council,
they would have proclaimed my words to my people
and would have turned them from their evil ways
and from their evil deeds.

Jer 23:23 “Am I only a God nearby,”
declares the Lord,
“and not a God far away?

Jer 23:24 Can anyone hide in secret places
so that I cannot see him?”
declares the Lord.
“Do not I fill heaven and earth?”
declares the Lord

PTL for He is GOOD and Has control over the Evil He knows the past, present and future, I will stand in Him and when i fall in the mud i will arise quickly as he awaits for me to do so. He loves me and i Him! He is my comforter and provider of all things! PTL