FAITH IS COMPLETE TRUST THAT GOD CAN DO ANYTHING

I PTL that i drive a lot with my work! i get a lot of spiritual teaching from great leaders on the radio (K WAVE a cali station) In God's "Perfect Timing"
the right lesson is played during my trials.
A couple months back is was on marriage and loving your enemies.
many things have become blurred in my mind these past couple of days so i really can't remember the day but it must have been thursday evening of friday but i don't remember driving long enough either time period to hear a full lesson.....no matter........
Point Being: it was on trusting God. then listen to nothing but christian music and it is usually on in my house 24/7 literally! (even while sleeping too much spiritual warfare out there for me right now and i need every tool i can use!)
2 songs by FFH came on yesterday and to mind now:
Hit me from the blind side (i just looked at the cover and the title is "Cover me")i had heard this song but never listen to it.

I didn't see this coming
It hit like a big surprise
Like a thief in the night
Stealing away my sunshine
Now I'm crawling on my hands and knees
Looking for the light

It hit me from the blind side
Now I don't know what to do
It hit me from the blind side
I cry out to You
I don't have any answers

Your ways are higher
Your love is stronger
And through this pain
You'll cover me
Your grace is greater
When there are no answers
And through this pain
You'll cover me
And through this pain
You'll cover me

I never thought this could happen
I'm living in my own nightmare
Are You even there?
Hanging on by a thread now
I'm begging for the pain to end
Will it ever end?

It hit me from the blind side
It's getting hard to breathe
It hit me from the blind side
The hurt, it feels so deep
And I don't have any answers

Now each night seems so long
I don't think I'm this strong
How many times can I ask why?
I can't believe this is real

http://www.lyricsdownload.com/ffh-cover-me-lyrics.html

now honestly i was listening but not feeling it. and it just made me cry even harder. just like turning it on now made me just crying again when i thought i was in a good place emotional and ready to share and be dared to move. I know this is all true but it come back to:

FAITH IS COMPLETE TRUST THAT GOD CAN DO ANYTHING!

The second song by them i can't find still looking. something about my faith is like shifting sand. always moving not standing strong it HIM.

That hit me. For a few years now i have noticed that on occasions i question how strong my faith really is. It's weird when my husband thought he was dying of cancer i had no fear i knew God was covering us! It's smaller things BTW if you ever want to hear about miracles make a comment and i will share a miracle or more if you wish. we lived 9 months on God's provision. Really i lived many years on His provisions but i mean solely HIM hands tied only HE did any work Only HE gave us HOPE< FAITH< FOOD< RENT< THINGS < L I V E !

anyway still looking for that song.

How is your FAITH? DO YOU BELIEVE IN HIS PERFECT TIMING? DO YOU BELIEVE HE CAN CONTROL ANY SITUATION EVEN A JUDGES RULING? YES EVEN THAT!! DO I BELIEVE???? I WAS ONCE TOLD THAT WITHOUT 100% BELIEVE THE CENTER OF THE WORD IS A LIE
BE LIE VE.

SO DO I REALLY HAVE FAITH? DO I REALLY BELIEVE? NO But i can spell the WORD without a thought (spelling is my down fall)

PERFECT TIMING~ Our church is joining with other community churches on a 40 day fast and pray. Our leader is being loyal with sending out pray and scripture which can be very DARING YOU TO MOVE. Friday he sent 2. maybe because he had to come and comfort me and the girls on Thursday. but the one that was for Thursday made me BALL. NOT cry sob without ceasing for some time. (a cried from 8 am to 2 pm)
so i don't understand when i hear or read something that should help me stand strong a break down can't move just cry. how does that help? when will i open my heart again? when will i trust and have complete faith again? I miss my faith. I have been known for my strong faith. please pray for me!

well i went through the whole album and don't find the song must be on something else.
I want my faith to be on a sold foundation is my point! Is yours? does it ever waver

i bet it's casting crowns not FFH let see.,.....,.no pure joy?....... i don't sorry

my faith is like shifting sand~~~~~~~~~~DARED TO MOVE

OH Pastors words for Thursday:

Bridges Family Day 11

Defilement by Idolatry

“Look up to the barren heights and see. Is there any place where you have not been ravished… You have defiled the land with your prostitutions and wickedness. Therefore the showers have been withheld and no spring rains have fallen…”
Jeremiah 3:2-3 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: The Prophet Jeremiah, speaking on behalf of the Lord, equates idolatry with prostitution. Seeking ultimate pleasures from sources other than the Lord Himself is spiritual adultery. It means that we give ourselves to other things, hoping to fill empty places in our lives that only god can truly fill. This spiritual adultery can take many forms, such as giving ourselves to our work or even to ministry in a way that replaces our devotion to Christ. It can mean looking to worldly systems and methodologies as the ultimate solution, instead of looking to the Lord. Seeking guidance from Christian leaders without seeking the Lord is also spiritual adultery. When something displaces our love and faith in the Lord, it becomes an idol in our lives. Jeremiah states that this kind of idolatry can affect even God’s creation that provides the spring rains. True healing and restoring of the land can come only as idolatry is replaced with pure love and affection for the Lord.

Worship the Lord as the One who fills every need.
Affirm to the Lord your desire that He be first in every area of your life.
Don’t let up! Give the Lord permission to point our every area of idolatry in your life.
Pray that our church will remove every idol of ministry, personality, or methodology.
Pray for the Holy Spirit to help you discern ways that Satan has tried to seduce you away from the Lord Jesus.
Pray that believers in our city will have hearts of pure devotion to the Lord.
Praise the Lord that His jealousy for us comes from His desire that we walk in healing and restoration.

Brian Park Senior Pastor Bridges Christian Fellowship
Riverside, CA 92506
951-782-0200

this really hit hard and i think i need to read/mediatate more on it~DARED TO MOVE
This is not the first time "spiritual adultary" has been brought to my attention. we had an wonderful woman "birdie" that once mentored me for a very short season and this was brought to my attention then I was blind and didn't get it sometimes i think i did but i must not have learned deep enough for here it is again. I Pray oh precious Lord that i would always remain not just loyal to you but that my desires for other pleasures or means to cover my pain would be bound by you and the you would keep me from temptations and continue to provide that hedge of protection around me and my family. bind the evil one from ours lives both spiritual and physically. AMEN

that reminds me of my neighbor that stopped by yesterday to check on me. She has a very strong accent so sometimes i missed what she was saying but my point:

she was afraid when she saw the "police activity" when she walked by my husband, not knowing who he was at first, she said she couldn't even look at him for long, she felt that he was bad, she felt evil and just wanted to hurry past him. But my daughter was out there and proud of her daddy and said HI to he and tried to introduce them but my neighbor didn't want to stop and just nodded. At first she was concerned that my girl was with him. we chatted a while and she along with me and others i have counseled with agree, GOD IS IN CONTROL. It's up to HIM. we prayed that He would protect her, that we agreed in Him being able to make the court decission and the judge make the words come and in agreement again we said i have done all that i can~~ GIVEN IT TO HIM
may i stop taking it back and REST IN HIM Oh LORD i PRAY PLEAD for your peace and comfort to COVER ME AND MY BABY!!!! lET ME do the right (righteous) thing let your words come from my mouth today and always especially on the 20th let your ways be my ways stop these tears i pray i don't want swollen eyes anymore i want your PEACE TO INDWELL MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PTL another blessing just came down got to RUN 70 minutes to get ready and be in another county to go see a premire or not but new movie .....bevery hills cauhua. i don't know the name and i can't spell PTL FREE