I should be HAPPY Just like I know WHO runs this place

Happy by Matthew West is the song for today! :)

Three o'clock
Tripping down the sidewalk
Looking like a fool with a
pocket full of questions
I was living in the worry
Moving in a hurry
In the wrong direction
But then
Suddenly it hit me
Doesn't really matter
'cause I got YOU with me
I think I don't have to be so
Down, down, down, down, down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy

Three thirty
Got a little dirty
Fear stuck its foot out and I
tripped on the same lie
That voice screaming into my head
Pushing me to play dead
Saying "don't you even try"
But how can I claim to be free
When I carry more chains than the
world when they see me?
I don't wanna be the fool who stays
Down, down, down, down down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that YOU found me
I should be happy

Now I'm not talking
'bout a smile so fake
While the world takes pictures 24/7
I just want my faith to be
a little more real
What you see is what you get
What you see is how I feel

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know WHO runs this place
Now that YOU found me
I should be happy


This song came to mind as i went to buy my daily soda. yes my addiction that i really need to break cuz i am gainin' the weight.

"I should Be Happy, Just like i know Who runs this place" my thought for the day as i think of those 2 phrases often even though i allow myself to be down down down.

Yesterday i spoke with my MOM, she is 81 has dementia but not too bad (she thinks it is but i don't see her daily so i don't see all that she really goes through)
Anyway she asked how I was and my reply was okay, her response you don't sound okay what'S wrong. just missing my br..... she started to say something like if she had forgotten then said oh yeah. well just think of it as if she went off and got married. it's the same thing you would be going thru if she had gotten married; just a little early. i had to laugh; but it didn't really help. that's not the kind of man i would want her to marry. anyway as i type this i think, wow, how selfish am i being? this is what she wanted and needed for this season and it just may be a short one. i do speak to her daily and she is not as happy and bubbly as the first couple of days she does say she loves me and misses me each day and her voice is growing dimmer. court is 10/20 maybe i will be surprised but i don't think so. i think she needs this to know that her dad loves her, She already knows of my love for her; and i do believe that is the only reason she is there. secondly (actually not the only reason) i think my middle daughter needed some one on one time with me too. thirdly i think the 2 girls needed some time apart to learn that they do need each other and i hope that some how this will bring them closer together. I hope that some how in all of this that they do find out what it is like to be a real family, kind and loving, which happen to be affirmations i have had up in my home for the past 2 years.

Also someone from our church went to be with the lord yesterday and the posting for it was so sweet and accepting. they had peace to know where he went and who is in charge! PTL and thoughts and prayers for continued peace in this go out to the whole family. my they handle their loss better than i am!
just goes to show how selfish we really are. they will not see their husband or father of young children again here on earth and mine is still alive and well.
Humbling!!!
i have said for too long now that i am not selfish in anyway.
Dared to Move again

time for God's word!

But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness. We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first. As has just been said: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.”
Hebrews 3: 13-12 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: As long as it is still “today,” repentance is in order! Repentance has often been portrayed as a one-time event that makes you right with God through Christ and assures you of the gift of heaven. But this passage instructs us to warn each other everyday about the danger of falling into sin. Repentance needs to be a lifestyle of all believers. If we truly understand the holiness of God and the sinfulness of our own hearts, then we will be quick to heed the admonition of Hebrews 3:15 that we not let our hearts become hardened as Israel did. Warning each other every day is a picture of a lifestyle of constant vigilance to remain pure before the Lord. We must cultivate a tenderness to the voice of the Holy Spirit and an alertness to the tendencies of our hearts toward sin. If we are to pray faithfully for transformation and healing of the land, repentance must become a lifestyle that we embrace.



Worship the Lord for His love that always seeks us out.
Confess to the Lord the ways you have not understood repentance as a lifestyle.
Ask the Lord to give you a tender heart that is sensitive to the voice of the Holy Spirit and the conviction of sin.
Pray for pastors and ministry leaders to live out lifestyles of repentance and brokenness.
Pray that the message of repentance as a way of life will be preached in churches in our community.
Pray that your lifestyle of repentance will glorify God and attract unbelievers to Himself.
Pray that unbelievers in our community will witness the brokenness and authenticity of the Church.