Age

let's do something different
it is Halloween isn't it. the day of the dead in mexico
an evil celebration or cerebrating evil i have always felt that even when i was a young thing. (child) I am still young., LOL

"Age is But a Number" i use to always say. Use to being the key phrase.
i remember my 21st Bday Do YOU?
my friends were OLDER yes 25 !! :}
they, being the good friends that they were, run up to the front and got in before me. Each 1 got carded. Now who's 21 st Bday? yes~ mine * and who didn't get carded? I don't !! it just bugged. i looked older than them? Please :(
then 25 UGH a quarter of a century. Killer~ Hated it ~Depressed.
then 26? ah notha, didn't phase me a bit.
30's no big deal. 40's I'm cool I'm Hip Yeah i don't look 40 something, I have young kids I fit in. Yeah my friends were all about 10 years younger, almost 8 i'm sure. Point= Something happened, middle child turned 13, the mouth that can go with it came, she's Half Angel half evil (she is so much like me, poor thing )
then I turned 49 ugh
:0 yes that's a mouth opened wide; dropped jaw; okay ~ a screaming old fart!
age is no longer a number! it's gray hair and wrinkles. don't talk about the eyes, worsening body functions of all kids, the weight gain, oh and am i lazy or old?
Maybe just whacked. LOL
Don't know what brought that all on but probably "Halloween".
Here's my view AND DON'T TELL ME IT'S INNOCENT!!
Since when were cut off hands or other limbs of purity or Good which i equate to GOD
Why would a pure thing, a soul made to be righteous in our Heavenly Fathers Eyes, for our acceptance of HIM, dress like the Evil One? or any of his goonies for that matter. Get a Grip! To me~ that is Not FUN
I have always been a very spiritual being. Filled with THE Spirit since the AGE of 12.. And Halloween was never fun for me. I always thought it was of the Evil.
Why as a parent would i send my sweet, precious gifts from God, out and tell them to knock on the doors of strangers to receive CANDY? Didn't i try to teach them, and still do to this day, "Stay away from strangers" "If you don't know them stay away" "don't talk to older men stay away"
So now they are to eat all this CAndy? in a day? maybe a week? so that cavities could take hold of the teeth that God gave them to use for survival? UM weight gain an issue?
NO i don't lie about the easter bunny or Old St Nick either. He was a saint by the way. a real man of God, doing good works for HIS kingdom, as it started anyway.
So you say you lie to your kids but punish them if they lie to you and teach them it's okay to raise your family in a lie?
Let me get this Straight you not only lie to your children about Santa or the Easter Bunny, you want your kids to be taught that Easter is for New Beginnings of Spring and even MORE CANDY OH yeah and a bunny can do what?
So i am suppose to lie, tell my kids it's okay to go knock on strangers door and eat the candy, and more is coming for thanksgiving and christmas, remember Easter UM UM Chocolate!!
AGE~ I am getting old. You know how stubborn those old Granny's are. They are one track minded and it better be minded just like theirs LOL I crack myself up

Well I chose Christ as my Savior today and any other Day, He rose on the 3rd day so i will continue to Celebrate the New Beginning I was Given, & I will Celebrate that On Easter without the Bunny but Definitely the Seder Meal (you know the last supper, there can be candy and hiding of the unleavened bread too with gifts) but that is on Passover.
I am ever so Thankful that Christ died so that I could receive the Holy Spirit and fellowship with my creator. i will celebrate that every day thru eternity but enjoy PUMPKINS, Pie, Bread, COOKIES, KLANG you out there???? baking????? Hungry!! :)
and Christmas the GIFT of LIFE HIMSELF on what a celebration it should be, but about HIM not you or yours the $ spent on others without mention of HIM at each purchase, shame SOrry a little loud on that one. but it stays.

so it's not my age i just don't like halloween and have locked myself in my bedroom with the lights out and the doors locked :) BOO!

Tired~ 10 Commandments

well i left @ 6:30 AM Tuesday Morning, got home minutes before the 7 o'clock hour PM.
I am tired today.
In my 3 - 4 hours of driving still no Big WOW. There was a lesson on Job which i had been anxiously awaiting to continue but it didn't do anything for me.
but then a lesson on the 10 Commandments was on and it was a bit Daring .

The teacher said multiple times that these are commandments not suggests, or should do or don'ts.
again it was like, heard this before. but something kept saying this is tomorrows blog. But today i don't remember why. LOL too tired. I haven't read Pastor Brian's yet either but it seemed like one of his was something along the line of the commandments later today i will have time to sit and really give devotion to thoughts.
One thought about the 10 commandments was about the Jewish law and the 600+ they have
365 being of negative decent and cover each day in the year
243 ? i think that is the right amount being of flesh. 1 for each imaginable piece of our body. that hit me for a quick moment and just came to me again.
sorry side tracked by the song playing. Let's find the lyrics and see what God has to say.....
Jennifer Knapp "You Answer Me" was propelled to copy paste quick like.
So lets read the reads and get back to 10 commandments is a minute or 2 :)


All the things I want to say
All at once they wash away
As You walk by, out of mind
My thoughts fly away

All the things I long to hear
Suddenly they reappear
You say in that hour Your Holy Power
Will wipe away my fears

I can hear You cry out loud
When You Answer Me
When You answer me
Once again I am revived
When You answer me You answer
When You answer me You answer me with love

To know You are I Am
Confidence of lion lying with the lamb
In greener fields, with all my zeal,
Is hard to comprehend

I can hear You cry out loud
When You Answer Me
When You answer me
Once again I am revived
When You answer me You answer
When You answer me You answer me with...

(With) love so understanding
I can hardly catch my breath
Seeing this I wonder how You have any love left
(Left) me not alone
When I did not believe
Through the darkness, through the darkness You answer me

I can hear You cry out loud
When You Answer Me
When You answer me
Once again I am revived
When You answer me You answer
When You answer me You answer me with love

Well many thoughts but the one that stands out is the "chorus?" (don't really know which part is which)

First it Says, "i can hear You cry out loud 'when you answer Me' He, God is waiting for us to give devotion to HIM and listen so that we may answer HIM,
but too often....
"Once again I am revived When YOU answer me YOU answer me" we expect HIM to answer us, to revive us with His Spirit of Peace usually from bad decisions we have made and created a time in our life of ill fortune. we sometime forget HE is GOD and we are to humble at His feet and Listen to HIM what answer(s) is He waiting for from us?

On that note i can see where the 10 Commandments Fall. They are HIS commands to us and we are to answer to HIM.
they are not wishes and as the sermon on the mount says if you have even THOUGHT of any of those things you might as well cut the hand, pluck the eye etc....lest you go to HELL.
Another word i herd yesterday before this actually was about HELL, not even on the Freeway yet in fact. That HELL use to be ALL or MOST of the sermons in the day of Ole'. But now We the People wont' go to a church with the word of damnation. Only Good and grace. But we must remember that Hell is mentioned many times and more often than Heaven. I found that to be interesting. How we think that because we are "saved" there is no Hell. Not just for the others! i have heard multiple times in the last month or 2 that there are those who think there are Christians but Jesus will say I don't know you and you don't know my father. it is about relationship! Also that as we all are sinners if you are IN SIN at the sound of the bells you will not hear. It is the repented heart that hears and will follow.....pretty deep and not sure i can go deeper on paper and too many thoughts flooding in, Pastor Brian being of them, 'don't preach unless you know what you are speaking on'...paraphrased i am sure, but i am not acting as a teacher be sure!!
I am opening forum to Dare US to Move In HIM! It is always up to the reader to seek HIM and His Word and the Truth of it all! In Christ I Stand :) Love ya Bro LOL :) and thanks for following, Miss you and Family hope to see you soon, more Stuff going on but not worth mentioning at this point; just keeping praying for the Nevada People :) Youngest seems fine WOW late gotta run love ya still :)

Praise the Lord

I song from an earlier post is playing, the words that hit me were, "If i wasn't drowning i wouldn't need You"
I was convicted since i haven't posted His Word for a few days.
In my own defense (like anyone cares or reads this) i was gone for the week end and busy with work yesterday and today is tuesday. I haven't heard or read any scripture that WOW'D me to jump and testify.
There has been change noted in my life though as i have a season of Dare to Move.
Is this the quiet before the storm? or am i to tell of growth in Him or will i fall in the mud again for boasting?
at this point i will Exalt Thee!

I Exalt Thee
by Pete Sanchez Jr.

For Thou, O Lord,
art high above all the earth
Thou art exalted
far above all gods
For Thou, O Lord,
art high above all the earth
Thou art exalted
far above all gods

I exalt Thee, I exalt Thee
I exalt Thee, O Lord
I exalt Thee, I exalt Thee
I exalt Thee, O Lord

For Thou, O Lord,
art high above all the earth
Thou art exalted
far above all gods
For Thou, O Lord,
art high above all the earth
Thou art exalted
far above all gods

I exalt Thee, I exalt Thee
I exalt Thee, O Lord
I exalt Thee, I exalt Thee
I exalt Thee, O Lord

i will not even try to link this time it is frustrating and i must get ready for i have an 8 AM appt. UGH

PTL ! Count your blessing :) there are many including the ability to breath on your own (or is that with Gods breath?)

Shine Jesus Shine

Lord the light of your love is shining,
In the midst of the darkness shining,
Jesus light of the world shine upon us,
Set us free by the truth you now bring us,
Shine on me. shine on me.

Shine Jesus shine
Fill this land with the Fathers Glory
Blaze, Spirit blaze,
Set our hearts on fire
Flow, River flow
Flood the nations with grace and mercy
Send forth Your Word
Lord and let there be Light.

Lord I come to Your awesome presence,
From the shadows into Your radiance,
By the Blood I may enter Your brightness,
Search me, try me, consume all my darkness,
Shine on me. shine on me.

As we gaze on Your kindly brightness.
So our faces display Your likeness.
Ever changing from glory to glory,
Mirrored here may our lives tell your story.
Shine on me. shine on me.

http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/cliff+richard/shine+jesus+shine_20032227.html



I have tried to insert the link for you tube video of song and another try for lyric and it doesn't want to play today sorry copy paste if you care.

I woke up with the word to talk about building a house. Let it be the house of the Lord. start with the foundation....

I really don't want to do this much work right now, i am forcing myself to type this much. Please give me strength to finish and if i don't please forgive me. amen

What is the foundation? the solid base.. what is your solid base? what is mine? Christ is mine. not true...the Trinity is mine. I first see God the Father, Creator of All, my Provider of All my needs; Then His Holy Spirit, my comforter, guide and counselor; then I see Christ Jesus as my savior, the one who brings me to my God, my Creator because of my Sin He allows me to fellowship with the Spirit and meet my maker who i want to Hear Say, "well done GOoD and faithful Servant"
I equate GOD TO GOoD. AND evil to devil. so for some reason i did that i couldn't erase it.
So that's my foundation. Dare you to share yours
I do know that some ways to build the foundation are Worshiping (many ways) Reading the Bible, Praying, My Favorite Praising which i do by Singing and Dancing, Fellowship is another great way to hold together that foundation! i'd be lost without people and friends and the Intercession of their prayers and Christs too!

Whats next the Frame? i really don't know, just trying to be obedient and if you know me that is not easy for me.
So our Bodies? ugh. The word tells us that our bodies should be our temple and not to defile it. UGH. well my intake has caused me to gain weight over the past 15 years and it doesn't want to leave. well i guess i would have to change my addiction to coke and replace with better eating habits and maybe even something more godly like reading his word and exercise?
OR is the Frame what we do to build the foundation no to fill the foundation?
I am lost and maybe tomorrow i will know what is next, maybe you will tell me


Okay i am done

I DARE YOU TO MOVE AND LEAVE ME SOME THOUGHTS ON BUILDING THE FOUNDATION OR OUR THE HOUSE, OUR PERSONAL TEMPLES

PTL for this is the Day that the Lord has Made let us be glad and rejoice in HIM
challenge: what is the "Day"?
I'd love to hear from you cause i know you are out there i see the count grow but i don't hear you. you are speaking but you are not saying anything first blog Talking Heads :)

Are U weak? Dwell in His Shelter

Todd Agnew Shepherd lyrics

Shepherd,
Your sheep are weary, Cold and tired,
battered and bruised and torn
Shepherd, Your sheep are hungry
We got what we wanted but we still need something more
We need to hear Your voice
Whatever You might say
We just need to hear Your voice
Show us the way
Shepherd,
Your sheep are lost
We chased our wants that we thought were needs
Now we can't get home
Shepherd, Your sheep are longing
We ate and we ran, we played and we danced, but we're empty
Shepherd, these sheep are Yours
We tried to be king, but we don't want to anymore

Psalm 91
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. 5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. 8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. 9 If you make the Most High your dwelling-- even the Lord, who is my refuge--10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent. 11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent. 14 "Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. 15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. 16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

Wow what is this world coming too? i searched the word first. guess i have been dared to move.

Pastor Brian's thoughts were of "The Weapon of Intercession"

Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will. He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. 1 John 5:14-15 (NKJV)

Prayer Focus: Intercession is a sure weapon in the hands of godly people who know how to come before the Throne of God according to His word. Powerful intercessory prayers are strategic in our calling as believers to pray according to God’s purposes. We must seek to recognize and repent of any defilement of the land, and then invite God’s presence to over whelm our communities. The most effective intercession comes in a spirit of humility, worship, and fasting-seeking God for His will and direction

enough said?.......
His words not mine for a change :)
what..?.. Wow a change :)
a good change :) Now stay humble :)

Unity is So Important~Be a Friend and Call a Friend~Dare You to Move

http://about.pricegrabber.com/search_fullinfomu.php/music_id=313780/masterid=531378001 Always Have, Always Will by Avalon released 1999.



Lets see if this works....above line is the song for today. somes up the place i am in today. Trying to stay humble after a huge trial period and feeling so light and cheerful. One must always stay on guard though, lest the evil one will sweep you off your feet. I want my feet on the solid rock of Christ, God my creator and provider of all, the Holy Spirit my counsler and comforter.

The song lyrics i could not find but is a follow up to
'Desperate" song from yesterday. Not that i am desperate but that i want to always be desperate for HIM to be in my life, First in My LIfe. I still feel at peace and have had the oppurtunity to fellowship with sisters and love them all WOW 3 in one day. now when i was struggling and felt alone not even 1 a day. Yesterday was awesome. had lunch with an associate too. pray for her as she is not herself and doesn't know why.
Time for the WORD.....

"Unity Puts Enemies to Flight" God is so amazing! Unity is what i experienced yesterday. Uniting with sisters in Christ, Praying with each one and for each one. What a fulfilling presence of "Family" and "Father God at the Head" Prayer is our strongest WEAPON! God is the Almighty, using Prayer and being In Him together creates the weapon
Pastor Brian speaks "Unity Puts Enemies to Flight"......

You will pursue your enemies, they will fall by the sword before you. Five of you will chase a hundred, and a hundred of your will chase ten thousand, your enemies will fall by the sword before you.

Leviticus 26:7-8 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: Do the math. God is declaring that the more united we are in warfare strategies, the greater our capacity to overcome the enemy. If the ratio simply remained one warrior defeating 20 enemies (five chasing 100), then it should follow that 100 would put just 2,000 to flight. But god is promising that 10,000 enemies will fall beneath the blows of weapons being wielded under His command. In the same way, this principle is demonstrated on a simpler level when Jesus declares, “…if two of you agree down here on earth concerning anything you ask, my Father in heaven will do it for you” (Matthew 18:19). Jesus is building the faith of the Church by teaching that the unity of even two believers is powerful in the Kingdom of God. The unity of believers in confronting forces of darkness is critical. Together we have greater capacity to see our communities released from the strongholds that hold so many in captivity to false doctrines, sinful patterns, and destructive lifestyles. By coming together to pray and worship, we are wielding the powerful spiritual weapon of unity. God promises our enemies will fall when we are united.

Praise God that under His power, strongholds will fall.
Confess times that you have struggled in unity with other believers.
Ask the Lord to give you the capacity and understanding to be unified with other believers in honoring ways.
Invite the Lord to fill your heart with the value of unity.
Invite the Lord to stir a work of unity in our church.
Pray that God will do a work of unity by the Spirit in our community with those who are true followers of Jesus Christ.

Excerpts taken from Focus on the Family, “Heal our Land” devotional.


Brian Park
Senior Pastor
Bridges Christian Fellowship

DESPERATE

yesterday i did not record a praise or worship song/lyric. This morning in my worship time i heard this and it was placed on my heart "TO BE DESPERATE FOR HIM" My most recent trial is over. ( i think anyway ) so i am not desperate for him :(
BUT i should be and so should you! Opps DARE YOU TO MOVE AND ME TOO!!

I still need to learn how to add the song as a link so you can hear this beautiful song to the Lord and sing to HIM It is sung by Joy Williams released in 2002 (i don't have any new stuff to speak of) copy and paste the link maybe that will work
http://www.google.com/musicl?lid=elh71GQf8WM&aid=ApfpgBd-nzD

Don't go, I'm a homesick child
Just stay and talk to me
Even if it's just for a while
Oh, I'm afraid of the dark
But You are the Light
Stay by my side
Lord, without You ...

I get a little desperate
Reaching out for Your love
I get a little desperate
To feel Your touch from above
I get desperate
Far away just won't do
I'm hopelessly, honestly, constantly
Desperate for You
Oh, Lord, when You hung on that tree
You showed once and for all
That You were desperate for me
And I know You'll be coming back soon
I hope time will fly, I'll survive
But in the meantime ...

I get a little desperate
Reaching out for Your love
I get a little desperate
To feel Your touch from above
I get desperate
Far away just won't do
I'm hopelessly, honestly, constantly
Desperate for You

Don't know what I did before You
Never really lived before You
And I want You to know that ...

I get a little desperate
Reaching out for Your love
I get a little desperate
To feel Your touch from above
I get desperate
Far away just won't do
I'm hopelessly, honestly, constantly
Desperate for You

I need You more in my lifeI am hopelessly, honesly, constantly
Desperate for You


wow be desperate for HIM

PTL for good friends. I am now "divorced" so i have been told. but my favorite times are with HIM He is my Husband! for always and forever. My dear friend and i spoke of HIS word for over about an Hour on the phone last night. It was beautiful! i so enjoyed sharing revolations we each have had some new some old. PTL and blessings to you my sister. HE LOVES YOU SO!! You ARE a beautiful sculpture to HIM! and me too :)

Wavering Faith

Yesterday has come and gone. WOW! a fleeting moment in time. Was it worth the amount of worry (sin), or anxiety of 'HOW will it all turn out'? More sin. Did God already tell me not to fight (which I did). wasn't i given the Word "STAND" from many sources? Yes i WAS! God Is Ever So Faithful!! i just have to tell of my lack of faith and wavering believe, as i have been preaching the word Stand and the meaning of Standing or Stood.... OH MY!!
i wake up @ 2AM Leave on time @ 3:30AM eating sunflower seeds the whole way to stay awake (i fall asleep driving especially if dark) arrive @ 7:45 court @ 9; go up to court room @ 8;45 the other party wasn't there? HUM Whats up? NO JUDGE WHAT???!!!!
You have got to be kidding!!! all of this and no judge. Continue in Nov what????
my job....i can't take anymore time where is spouse? why won't he answer phone it's now 9:30 fighting back tears for 30 minutes and spouse calls in parking lot be there. building anger (sin) i did all that above and you just mosey in?? only thoughts didn't speak. still sin (anger)
then i find out he had filed more junk against me ......more anger. can't talk nicely at all now. GOOD THING JUDGE WASN'T THERE!! spouse even said if you do this in front of judge you lose. Lies, deceit etc....Righteous Anger :) still not handled in a godly way though :(

anyway after 6 hours together (5 with tears) we are able to come to agreement of ripping the family apart; youngest with dad; middle with mom' and NO SPOUSAL SUPPORT TO HIM PTL' No child support out of pocket either; split responsibility in half with family :( I am glad it is over. huge burden off back; now i can feel in control again. so sorry but i had to say it. isn't that the carnal way of us humans to want to be in control of it all. how many times did i say and pray 'it's yours LORD'. 'Your Will' 'I want what i get'. but took it back with each fit of rage each tear that poured. there was no faith :(
In the end i can say PTL THANK YOU FATHER. but during i was really muddy :(

just goes to show HIS TIMING IS PERFECT! HIS WILL IS PERFECT! HE IS ENOUGH!

HE IS EVER SO MORE FAITHFUL TO ME THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN TO HIM!! THANK YOU JESUS FOR THE CROSS! THANK YOU FOR TAKING ME AS YOUR BRIDE!! THANK YOU FOR NEVER FORSAKING ME JUST AS YOU PROMISE !!

What i haven't said yet is that on the way to Vegas the thought came to me that the judge would not be there today. i didn't accept it though because i couldn't imagine having to come back again. the time and $ wasted. FORGIVE ME FATHER FOR MY LACK OF TRUST AND FAITH, FOR NOT LISTENING TO YOUR SPIRIT PREPARE ME. FORGIVE ME FOR BLOWING UP AND FREAKING OUT AND NOT STANDING I PRAY THAT I KEEP PRESSING ON IN YOUR FAITH AND NOT MINE FOR I AM FAR TOO WEAK TO EVEN CALL MYSELF A "CHRISTIAN" MY WAYS ARE NOT YOURS YET I WANT THEM TO BE which leads me to the word. I heard this on my way home today and thought this is the word of the day. the bottom line first RUN if you are in a place that is not good, godly RUN don't stay there RUN

Pro 5:1 My son, pay attention to my wisdom, listen well to my words of insight,
2 that you may maintain discretion and your lips may preserve knowledge.
3 For the lips of an adulteress drip honey, and her speech is smoother than oil;
4 but in the end she is bitter as gall, sharp as a double-edged sword.
5 Her feet go down to death; her steps lead straight to the grave. [fn]
6 She gives no thought to the way of life; her paths are crooked, but she knows it not. 7 Now then, my sons, listen to me; do not turn aside from what I say.
8 Keep to a path far from her, do not go near the door of her house,
9 lest you give your best strength to others and your years to one who is cruel,
10 lest strangers feast on your wealth and your toil enrich another man's house.
11 At the end of your life you will groan, when your flesh and body are spent.
12 You will say, "How I hated discipline! How my heart spurned correction!
13 I would not obey my teachers or listen to my instructors.
14 I have come to the brink of utter ruin in the midst of the whole assembly."
15 Drink water from your own cistern, running water from your own well.
16 Should your springs overflow in the streets, your streams of water in the public squares?
17 Let them be yours alone, never to be shared with strangers.
18 May your fountain be blessed, and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth.
19 A loving doe, a graceful deer-- may her breasts satisfy you always, may you ever be captivated by her love.
20 Why be captivated, my son, by an adulteress? Why embrace the bosom of another man's wife?
21 For a man's ways are in full view of the Lord, and he examines all his paths.
22 The evil deeds of a wicked man ensnare him; the cords of his sin hold him fast.
23 He will die for lack of discipline, led astray by his own great folly.

FUnnY if you know me you may understand why i said funny. if you don't no worry

the lesson didn't include the whole chapter and the lesson wasn't so much on adultery but on disobedience. Run lest you lose your life because of SIN. any Sin!! Don't stay in it repent, rebuke your brother so that he may live.


i really enjoyed work today. i said many times PTL for my job I love my job. there is no way i could do anything other than this job!!!!

SIT, WALK, THEN STAND

Still focusing medatating on last blog.... but knew ugly thought is that i do not have organized thinking.
This growing, maturing, changing SUCKS. I liked myself a lot better before :)

Keep me in your prayers as i drive through the wee hours of the morning and hope i am home before too late Monday Evening>
Pray that i continue to STAND In HIM, Humbly KNOWING that He is in Control, Wanting what i get for it will be HIS WILL and HIS TIMING IS PERFECT JUST AS EVERY GIFT THAT IS GOOD IS FROM HIM I EXPECT HIS PERFECTION AND WILL ACCEPT WITH AND THROUGH LOTS OF PRAYERS ;0)

TODAY'S message still in Ephesians 4:1-16
Sit, Walk, Stand
Sit i equate to be still because i don't remember what Pastor said. (learn?)
Walk: is to Walk in Him in His Ways= Be a "CHRISTIAN" Christ like
Stand you know the word of the month here again in church. To believe, have faith trust obey live well in Him "Want what you get" knowing that the God of Wonders is in Control and...something got dropped and when i came back i have no clue what it was.
but as i get ready for my nap before my drive this was my closing song from God provider of all..... how perfect is God's Timing! :.)

Building 429
Shadow Of Angels lyrics
Send "Shadow Of Angels" Ringtone to Cell Phone

Sunrise on Sunset Beach
Finds me right where I watched it set
I spent the night inside myself
But I haven't found me yet

But I'm not running from you anymore
I'm not running from you anymore, oh no not anymore

Cause I believe that when I call for You
You hear the plea for my rescue
You lift me up above the world I know
And I know that when I speak Your name
You hear my voice and send Your saints
To cover me in the shadow of angels

I got caught in the memories
Cause they never fail to prove
I'm insecure and incomplete
It's a stinging point of truth

So I will never find the best of me
Until I find myself in You, I'll find myself in You

Cause I believe that when I call for You
You hear the plea for my rescue
You lift me up above the world I know
And I know that when I speak Your name
You hear my voice and send Your saints
To cover me in the shadow of angels

Cause I believe that when I call for You
You hear the plea for my rescue
You lift me up above the world I know
And I know that when I speak Your name
You hear my voice and send Your saints
To cover me

And I know that when I speak Your name,
You hear my voice and send Your saints,
In the Shadow of Angels

PTL

Being able to Stand and Wait For God's Perfect Timing

It's Friday, Court is Monday. I keep thinking of what to say or what if they Say.....


Then 'quickly' i am reminded to Stand! PTL that the Spirit is Here; More Over (as it is always available) I have an Opened Heart and Ears to Hear! PTL Thank You Lord!

So yesterdays Lesson (K WAVE) was Queen Ester and Mordecai. Point:

Mordecai did not receive the blessings/honor or reward at the time of the humble and honorable act. It was the day the plan had been made to have him Killed that God put it on the Kings Heart to read history, (No actually have someone else read to him), and heard of Mordecais' act to save the King. Then the King asked what had been done to honor this man. nothing.
Then, the King asked the Man, Haman, who had planned to Kill Mordecai, 'what should be done to honor the man whom the king is pleased with' Haman (the man with the plot to kill Mordecai) thinking it was he the King was speaking of, made his statement to be paraded with a royal horse and robe announcing that this is the man the king is pleased with. (Haman was a bit discouraged that the tale had gone this way and had to do the parading and announcing)

The lesson explained that God blessed Mordecai at the "Perfect Time'. That Mordecai was a humble righteous man and even after the announcement he went back to his post at the city gates. (No big deal to him- humble)


I pray that as Monday gets closer and is even upon us that I remember this story/lesson.
that i 'STAND in HIM' and Humbly wait for His Perfect Timing and OH YEAH the ending words and prayer were my point too....


Not to want what you think you deserve or is right. But "want what you get". When 'Standing' in 'Him' in 'Faith' and 'Humbled' in His Perfect Timing what You Get 'Will Be' God's Will and not that of you or others!!


that is my prayer request not just for The Next Few Days, BUT for the rest of my days!!! TO WANT WHAT I GET
PTL

To "Stand" in HIM and What is to be "Humble"?

Many thoughts rambling right now.
My good friend "Sheesh-o-phlip, Bob!" prayed Over Me during a worship time and i have yet to know the "Word(s)" given to her. I would like to meet up with Sheesh... to find out what the Spirit gave her.
"Husband" called yesterday doing his normal rant, rave, blame and claiming to be forthright and in control. i was shaken for a while. He called @ 2PM while i was at work, in a new store not yet opened, with about a team of 6 or 7; i stepped away, but had to tell him that i couldn't get into a "fight" that i was at work and would call him when i was off in about 1 hour. it was only 30 minutes and he went on yelling and saying that once again it has to be "ibshells's" way as always but i better listen this time mean while i think he didn't take a breath for 3 minutes then his words were even more off base and then he suddenly can't hear me because my "blue tooth" isn't working right. I explained that i don't own a "bluetooth" (can't afford it) and would call him when i got home. which of course he wouldn't answer the phone. so i call my youngest who was at a friends house for the 3rd day in a row. It seems like a flag to me but not going there yet.
So i was shaken. One word that was given to "Sheesh..." the day before my "blindsided hit" was to "Stand" as i have noticed it being written also on the dry erase board that the Peace Officer pointed out to me (still there too - on purpose) and has been in a few lessons and songs of worship too.
I prayed, and worked on being calm before i got home to middle child, as it seems or has come to my attention, that she is always at the brunt of my tension and i seem to become short tempered with her and she is the innocent by-stander in all of this. so you see, I do see some growth in me, but that is also what i was thinking (boasting?) only moments before that phone call from "husband".
SO in this, noticing growth and not beating myself up for a change, was i not humble for that moment and the phone call was a humbling? i don't get it. when ever i seem to "get it" i fall on my face; what happened to "stand".
as the story goes on, i was only a bit tense with Mid child and explained we need to be calm for a few more and let me complete my "melt down" (for a lack of better words/thoughts)
We had planned a mother daughter evening with a cooking lesson which included shopping first. on the way to the store my melt down ended as i took my eyes off myself and listened in on a phone call she was having. (realizing she needs me and shouldn't be the victim in this any longer!)
So often when we keep our eyes on our self and forget to look at others. At these times we are NOT "standing" "humble" or doing "His Will".
Last night i remembered the "Church Family" who recently lost their father, head of household and Husband. Gone from this world as we know it. My Youngest is still on this planet "Alive". then as i opened to write this i was lead to the imagine of another with cancer and an upcoming surgery, now another who just had surgery, my worries seem smaller and i lift all of these fellow believers up to HIM, for He is the one in control, He is the one who knew the call would come (Pray for Mondays court date HIS WILL); that those children would be fatherless, the mother a widow, (pray for their continued Peace in Him that they would Stand) HE knew, He knows the out come of cancer and the court decision. (pray for healing put His will and her ability to Stand in Him no matter what His Will is) Do I, We, Stand in His everlasting, never changing Love and Faithfulness. Is it just a Choice to Humble and Pray, to ask and be Filled with the Spirit?

Time to check God's word......of course..... "stood" is in the first sentence. God's timing Is Always Perfect........

Day 23

Inquiring Is God’s Expectation

For who has stood in the counsel of the LORD, and has perceived and heard His word? Who has marked His word and heard it?
Jeremiah 23:18 (NKJV)

Prayer Focus: Jeremiah was challenging all the prophets who kept speaking on behalf of the Lord, yet did not know Him well enough to even hear what He was saying. Jeremiah’s charge against other prophets was that they were not telling the truth-that God wanted His people to turn from their wicked ways. If we are to speak out about the heart of God, that privilege comes with the expectation that we actually inquire of the Lord first! A careful examination of this verse teaches that we are to spend extended time in His presence (stood) in “intimate consultation” (counsel) until we truly understand what He is saying to us (perceived and heard), so that we can then obey and tell others (marked and heard). To speak on behalf of the Lord, but yet not know Him intimately or spend time in His presence inquiring of Him, is an affront to God. If we are to discover God’s plan for the transformation of our cities and the healing of our land, we must follow the example of the Lord Jesus Christ in John 5:19-20. Even Jesus inquired of His Father!

John 5:19 Jesus gave them this answer: “I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does.
Jhn 5:20 For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, to your amazement he will show him even greater things than these.

Worship the Lord as the One who invites us into intimate consultation with Himself.
Thank the Lord that in the name of Jesus you are welcome into His Presence.
Confess to the Lord the ways you have neglected to inquire of Him, yet claim to speak for Him.
Ask the Lord to teach you how to spend intimate time in His Presence, growing in your ability to hear Him.
Pray that your pastor and church leaders will learn to inquire of the Lord and intimately seek Him.
Pray that pastors and ministry leaders in our city will desire to inquire of the Lord together for our city.
Pray that the excuse of lack of time will no longer be a factor in keeping leaders from inquiring of the Lord.

Jer 23:22 But if they had stood in my council,
they would have proclaimed my words to my people
and would have turned them from their evil ways
and from their evil deeds.

Jer 23:23 “Am I only a God nearby,”
declares the Lord,
“and not a God far away?

Jer 23:24 Can anyone hide in secret places
so that I cannot see him?”
declares the Lord.
“Do not I fill heaven and earth?”
declares the Lord

PTL for He is GOOD and Has control over the Evil He knows the past, present and future, I will stand in Him and when i fall in the mud i will arise quickly as he awaits for me to do so. He loves me and i Him! He is my comforter and provider of all things! PTL

from a follower on Marriage!

Monday, October 13, 2008
Below is from a fellow believer. not long ago another had mentioned a book "love and respect" so i think this is the same story/idea; same author as she also goes to this same church. for anyone wanting info on "marriage" there are 2 links below (you may have to copy paste, as it doesn't appear to make links when i try)
Also our Marriage Ministry Team is excellent! Thanks Klang for your comment as i "Stole" it from your page :) Glad you had a good week end!
i had those 3's again, thanks to a great helper i made it through that long 1 1/2 hour :) LOL it's all good and reminds me that i am not perfect either :)

Good weekend
Well USC won this weekend, and 1,3&4 all lost. Yes! The Dodgers won on Sunday, Yes! And my wife and I went to a marriage conference put on by our church on Saturday. It was a great conference! We watched the Love & Respect videos. WOW! I recommend these DVD's to EVERYONE, Christian or not. There is some great info in there about how to treat you spouse, and why women think the way they do, and why men think the way they do. We're different, if you haven't figured that out yet. (And even if you have) Check this out online. http://www.loveandrespect.com This info is great even if you aren't married. Please check it out. The leaders even have a blog. http://emersonandsarah.blogspot.com
Posted by Klang at 1:39 AM

good words from Pastor Brian too
Relentless Repentance

Because your heart was responsive and you humbled yourself before God when you heard what he spike against this place and its people, and because you humbled yourself before me and tore your robes and wept in my presence, I have heard you declares the LORD.
2 Chronicles 34:27 (NIV)

Results of Repentance

Because your heart was responsive and you humbled yourself before the LORD when you heard what I have spoken against this place and its people…you tore your robes and wept in my presences, I have heard you declares the LORD.

2 Kings 22: 19-10 (NIV)

PTL

i think i have received HIS PEACE and actually kept it letting go of my anger and pain for the loss of the presence of my youngest. PTL
i can still cry if i think too long like right now, but its an okay cry, not a pain with salt poured in it. I know she loves me and i know that she knows that i love her.
I am focusing more on HIM as i listen to "enough" by Chris Tomlin w/David Crowder (Passion) i think Yeah I am focusing on HIM and REMEMBERING that He is More than Enough. Still more awesome than I know. Every Need You satisfy me with Your LOVE and all i have in YOU is more than enough!
Yes it's a good day and was a good weekend! PTL

"Enough"

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
worth living for
And still more awesome than I know

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough

Youre my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
Youre the coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know

More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough for me

Child Of Mine

As i sit here wondering what else i need to do to be a better person. clearly i am not good enough yet; i losely call myself a christian for i have accepted HIM but don't follow all HIS WAYS. Besides i am good at beating myself up, i am told that often and feel it today. Why do i give to the Lord my life and all that is in it good and bad. turn around and take it back. the many thoughts i have won't settle so that i can type one thought at a time. but as i was asking Him 1000 questions this song came on. Yes that is what i do; listen to music. I just want to get it right! i am tired of my own mistakes and seeing them over again. Can't YOU just Change me to be the New Creation i have been promised? i give you all control again!

SONG:

You decided long ago
To let me in to your deepest soul
You have given me
A pride of place
Then somehow you let it fade away

I know you so well
And I can tell
When you've been hiding something from me
Just let it go
Let my love flow
Let it bring you release

Chorus
I have come
To breathe new life
Into the heart of a child of mine
I have come
To give you peace
So lift your head and believe

You were made
In a beautiful way
Born to be holy
And sure of your faith
Something inside you
Has led you astray
Now you're locked in a struggle
And it won't go away

I know you have been
Down on your knees
I saw you cryin' for mercy
Well how can I help
When you're still holdin' on
To somethin' more precious than meChorus 2
I have come
To breathe new life
Into the heart of a child of mine
I have come
To lift you up
To set you free so you believe

It's all about total surrender
It's all about total surrender
It's all about total surrender
Givin' it up when the goin' gets tough
Givin' it up when the goin' gets rough

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What it is to be a Christian Part II

ONE DAY OF THE WEEK
y: LARUE
Copyright: 1999 NEW SPRING PUBLISHING, INC. CDTitle: LARUE Year: 1999

I look into the eyes of you,
I see the things you don't want me to
The things you try to hide, but you don't know,
i look deep inside
I see through the games you play
when you go to church on sunday
You put on your mask and think its alright to be A christian one day of the week
God looks into the heart of you,
He sees your life, it's black as night
But if you ask Him inside, you will find,
that He will wash you sins Clean and white
God is not here to condemn you,
He just wants to let you know
That if you choose to follow Him,
He'll never let you go

this song has been on my mind since last week.
I am not sure if I am being "Dared to Move" or
"Dare You to Move"

i missed a "Revolve" tour last night and today because i had work o do. i have so many slow times. But this important time to be with the Lord, other believers but most importantly "my middle child" i missed. how can i be so blinded by darkness. what was i thinking? She is having starbucks one of her favorite things and i am off to something for the first time a "Demo" at a grocery store. UCK no that is not a four letter word how else could i spell that UGH, finger down throat. anyway i go with a grateful heart because i love me job and this new experience! PTL
that's it for now

I should be HAPPY Just like I know WHO runs this place

Happy by Matthew West is the song for today! :)

Three o'clock
Tripping down the sidewalk
Looking like a fool with a
pocket full of questions
I was living in the worry
Moving in a hurry
In the wrong direction
But then
Suddenly it hit me
Doesn't really matter
'cause I got YOU with me
I think I don't have to be so
Down, down, down, down, down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that you found me
I should be happy

Three thirty
Got a little dirty
Fear stuck its foot out and I
tripped on the same lie
That voice screaming into my head
Pushing me to play dead
Saying "don't you even try"
But how can I claim to be free
When I carry more chains than the
world when they see me?
I don't wanna be the fool who stays
Down, down, down, down down

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know who runs this place
Now that YOU found me
I should be happy

Now I'm not talking
'bout a smile so fake
While the world takes pictures 24/7
I just want my faith to be
a little more real
What you see is what you get
What you see is how I feel

I should be happy
I should be happy
I should be living up these days
Just like I know WHO runs this place
Now that YOU found me
I should be happy


This song came to mind as i went to buy my daily soda. yes my addiction that i really need to break cuz i am gainin' the weight.

"I should Be Happy, Just like i know Who runs this place" my thought for the day as i think of those 2 phrases often even though i allow myself to be down down down.

Yesterday i spoke with my MOM, she is 81 has dementia but not too bad (she thinks it is but i don't see her daily so i don't see all that she really goes through)
Anyway she asked how I was and my reply was okay, her response you don't sound okay what'S wrong. just missing my br..... she started to say something like if she had forgotten then said oh yeah. well just think of it as if she went off and got married. it's the same thing you would be going thru if she had gotten married; just a little early. i had to laugh; but it didn't really help. that's not the kind of man i would want her to marry. anyway as i type this i think, wow, how selfish am i being? this is what she wanted and needed for this season and it just may be a short one. i do speak to her daily and she is not as happy and bubbly as the first couple of days she does say she loves me and misses me each day and her voice is growing dimmer. court is 10/20 maybe i will be surprised but i don't think so. i think she needs this to know that her dad loves her, She already knows of my love for her; and i do believe that is the only reason she is there. secondly (actually not the only reason) i think my middle daughter needed some one on one time with me too. thirdly i think the 2 girls needed some time apart to learn that they do need each other and i hope that some how this will bring them closer together. I hope that some how in all of this that they do find out what it is like to be a real family, kind and loving, which happen to be affirmations i have had up in my home for the past 2 years.

Also someone from our church went to be with the lord yesterday and the posting for it was so sweet and accepting. they had peace to know where he went and who is in charge! PTL and thoughts and prayers for continued peace in this go out to the whole family. my they handle their loss better than i am!
just goes to show how selfish we really are. they will not see their husband or father of young children again here on earth and mine is still alive and well.
Humbling!!!
i have said for too long now that i am not selfish in anyway.
Dared to Move again

time for God's word!

But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness. We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first. As has just been said: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.”
Hebrews 3: 13-12 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: As long as it is still “today,” repentance is in order! Repentance has often been portrayed as a one-time event that makes you right with God through Christ and assures you of the gift of heaven. But this passage instructs us to warn each other everyday about the danger of falling into sin. Repentance needs to be a lifestyle of all believers. If we truly understand the holiness of God and the sinfulness of our own hearts, then we will be quick to heed the admonition of Hebrews 3:15 that we not let our hearts become hardened as Israel did. Warning each other every day is a picture of a lifestyle of constant vigilance to remain pure before the Lord. We must cultivate a tenderness to the voice of the Holy Spirit and an alertness to the tendencies of our hearts toward sin. If we are to pray faithfully for transformation and healing of the land, repentance must become a lifestyle that we embrace.



Worship the Lord for His love that always seeks us out.
Confess to the Lord the ways you have not understood repentance as a lifestyle.
Ask the Lord to give you a tender heart that is sensitive to the voice of the Holy Spirit and the conviction of sin.
Pray for pastors and ministry leaders to live out lifestyles of repentance and brokenness.
Pray that the message of repentance as a way of life will be preached in churches in our community.
Pray that your lifestyle of repentance will glorify God and attract unbelievers to Himself.
Pray that unbelievers in our community will witness the brokenness and authenticity of the Church.

What is it to be a CHRISTIAN?

the true definition of a christian is to be Christ like. what is it to be Christ like?
in my radio lessons lately some of the words have been on Paul, in the book of Romans. he seems to talk in circles, i got lost trying to follow sometimes; but the point was we are human and we are in constant struggle to be Christ like. Does that mean we give up because we are mere humans or to STAND (another word that has been given to me many times this last week which today marks 1 week without my youngest).
So Paul had a great turn in his live when he chose to follow Christ. He had to Repent. Pastor Brian speaks on repentance in the words to follow at the end.

Remember to ASK to be filled with HIS Spirit each morning for we can not do it alone! we need HIM and His spirit. It is the GOD HEAD 3 in 1
I heard and accept the word that Jesus could not do it on His own. He too had to be anointed with the Holy spirit. Baptized not just in water but with the Holy Spirit. The lesson spoke of Jesus not being able to do miracles without the Holy Spirit. It wasn't Jesus and it was the God Head 3 in 1 that accomplished miracles. Christ was perfect, and we can strive to be perfect and hope for excellence that's good enough for me. the saying is that practice makes perfect, i will practice being as Christ was so that i may find excellence.

The Character of God in repentance

Then Job answered the LORD and said: ‘I know that You can do everything and that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You. You asked ‘Who is this who hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, Things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. Listen, please and let me speak; You said ‘I will question you and you shall answer me. ‘ I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, But now my eye sees You. Therefore I abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes. “
Job 42: 1-6 (NKJV)

Prayer Focus: Job learned quickly that there was no room for arrogance or misinterpretation of true repentance. As he was confronted by the God of the Universe, his only response was to meekly take back everything he thought he knew-and then sit on ashes to think about God’s powerful attributes even more! God peppered Job with simple questions about His creation. Job immediately knew that in the presence of the Almighty God, the quicker the repentance the better. Job most likely didn’t mean to be arrogant in his observations, but his questions were nevertheless an affront to God. If God repeatedly calls His people to repentance, it is arrogant for us to try to present a more “softened” approach. If God created hell as a place for the unrepentant, then we had better not lessen the reality by teaching only part of the gospel message. Repentance is important to God, and so our lives ought to be marked by deeply repentant hearts and attitudes toward Him.

Worship God for His character and mighty attributes.
Thank God that He loves us in spite of our humanness.
Confess the ways you have taken the message of repentance lightly and tried to soften the reality.
Read Job 38-42 and invite the Lord to give you a right perspective of His power and majesty.
Pray that leaders in our church will walk in true humility and a deep reverence for the Lord.
Pray that the message of repentance to the lost in our community will not be compromised.

Brian Park
Senior Pastor
Bridges Christian Fellowship
6780 Magnolia Ave
Riverside, CA 92506

for a friend~ parallel lives

http://www.268generation.com/2.0/splash5.htm
i'd be lost without Christ and Worshiping Him is what keeps me going without fail.

Some of my favorite worship music and artists come together under the Title of "Passion". the above link will take you to the site for the events that Passion participate in and links to play or buy their CDs

my next favorite worship CD is another compilation "Our Hearts" when i am down and out i go to that CD.
http://www.audiblefaith.com/pages/sg200977


Still need to find out how to place music links and live songs too.

In Searching for the links i lost my train of thought LOL happens often

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! fell free to contact me :)

Don't let this rock take me Down

This rock is tied around my ankle
This thorn is burried in my skin
I wonder why I have to struggle
But then again if I wasn't drowning I wouldn't need YOU to save me
Oh, and if I wasn't broken I wouldn't need YOU to heal me
You keep me broken

Chorus:
Don't let this river get lost in the ocean
Don't let this rock take me down, down, down
My heart is standing at the edge of the world
I need YOU to help me make the turnaround

So many puzzles with no answers
So many questions with no peace
So many second guesses, but then again I guess
If I wasn't drowning I wouldn't need YOU to save me
If I wasn't broken I wouldn't need YOU to heal me
Oh, Lord I'm drowning
Chorus:


Na na na na
Na na na na
Help me make the turnaround
Na na na na
I need YOU
I need YOU
Na na na na
Help me make this turnaround
Bridge:
I need YOU
I know I need YOU
Chorus:
Bridge:

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/matthew_west/the_turnaround.html


Yesterday wasn't the best. As i reflect back on yesterday the given word was "indifferent", then the bibles words God spits/vomits out the cold hearted. The last thing i want is a cold heart for HIM and to be spat out of His Kingdom! I relate to David, A Heart after Him, A Heart for God! But yet David committed many sins. although sin is sin doesn't weigh differently he had some SIN as do I. Currently i am guilty of Anger and resenting my husband and need to be forgiving so that i may be forgiven! having a hard time with that one. need more prayer. & PTL for my prayer partners!! be lost without you and HIM! thanks !!! :)

The above song was playing in the car this AM when taking child to school and i thought wow what was yesterday? besides bad, I am going to confess my sin(?), don't think so but maybe. i don't think to drink alcohol is sin; i think being drunken is sin as the bible says. but i must be careful not to allow my emotions send me to drinking for this is the area the evil one thinks he can get me. (i bought some and wanted to get drunk but only drank)
As in days prior "Spiritual Adultery" seeking something else to fill a void that only God should be filling! So that is the sin. (got it) I miss my daughter !! tears come as i write this. the post preceding this is true and right, but my emotional state is not always. Love Ya! :)

FAITH IS COMPLETE TRUST THAT GOD CAN DO ANYTHING

I PTL that i drive a lot with my work! i get a lot of spiritual teaching from great leaders on the radio (K WAVE a cali station) In God's "Perfect Timing"
the right lesson is played during my trials.
A couple months back is was on marriage and loving your enemies.
many things have become blurred in my mind these past couple of days so i really can't remember the day but it must have been thursday evening of friday but i don't remember driving long enough either time period to hear a full lesson.....no matter........
Point Being: it was on trusting God. then listen to nothing but christian music and it is usually on in my house 24/7 literally! (even while sleeping too much spiritual warfare out there for me right now and i need every tool i can use!)
2 songs by FFH came on yesterday and to mind now:
Hit me from the blind side (i just looked at the cover and the title is "Cover me")i had heard this song but never listen to it.

I didn't see this coming
It hit like a big surprise
Like a thief in the night
Stealing away my sunshine
Now I'm crawling on my hands and knees
Looking for the light

It hit me from the blind side
Now I don't know what to do
It hit me from the blind side
I cry out to You
I don't have any answers

Your ways are higher
Your love is stronger
And through this pain
You'll cover me
Your grace is greater
When there are no answers
And through this pain
You'll cover me
And through this pain
You'll cover me

I never thought this could happen
I'm living in my own nightmare
Are You even there?
Hanging on by a thread now
I'm begging for the pain to end
Will it ever end?

It hit me from the blind side
It's getting hard to breathe
It hit me from the blind side
The hurt, it feels so deep
And I don't have any answers

Now each night seems so long
I don't think I'm this strong
How many times can I ask why?
I can't believe this is real

http://www.lyricsdownload.com/ffh-cover-me-lyrics.html

now honestly i was listening but not feeling it. and it just made me cry even harder. just like turning it on now made me just crying again when i thought i was in a good place emotional and ready to share and be dared to move. I know this is all true but it come back to:

FAITH IS COMPLETE TRUST THAT GOD CAN DO ANYTHING!

The second song by them i can't find still looking. something about my faith is like shifting sand. always moving not standing strong it HIM.

That hit me. For a few years now i have noticed that on occasions i question how strong my faith really is. It's weird when my husband thought he was dying of cancer i had no fear i knew God was covering us! It's smaller things BTW if you ever want to hear about miracles make a comment and i will share a miracle or more if you wish. we lived 9 months on God's provision. Really i lived many years on His provisions but i mean solely HIM hands tied only HE did any work Only HE gave us HOPE< FAITH< FOOD< RENT< THINGS < L I V E !

anyway still looking for that song.

How is your FAITH? DO YOU BELIEVE IN HIS PERFECT TIMING? DO YOU BELIEVE HE CAN CONTROL ANY SITUATION EVEN A JUDGES RULING? YES EVEN THAT!! DO I BELIEVE???? I WAS ONCE TOLD THAT WITHOUT 100% BELIEVE THE CENTER OF THE WORD IS A LIE
BE LIE VE.

SO DO I REALLY HAVE FAITH? DO I REALLY BELIEVE? NO But i can spell the WORD without a thought (spelling is my down fall)

PERFECT TIMING~ Our church is joining with other community churches on a 40 day fast and pray. Our leader is being loyal with sending out pray and scripture which can be very DARING YOU TO MOVE. Friday he sent 2. maybe because he had to come and comfort me and the girls on Thursday. but the one that was for Thursday made me BALL. NOT cry sob without ceasing for some time. (a cried from 8 am to 2 pm)
so i don't understand when i hear or read something that should help me stand strong a break down can't move just cry. how does that help? when will i open my heart again? when will i trust and have complete faith again? I miss my faith. I have been known for my strong faith. please pray for me!

well i went through the whole album and don't find the song must be on something else.
I want my faith to be on a sold foundation is my point! Is yours? does it ever waver

i bet it's casting crowns not FFH let see.,.....,.no pure joy?....... i don't sorry

my faith is like shifting sand~~~~~~~~~~DARED TO MOVE

OH Pastors words for Thursday:

Bridges Family Day 11

Defilement by Idolatry

“Look up to the barren heights and see. Is there any place where you have not been ravished… You have defiled the land with your prostitutions and wickedness. Therefore the showers have been withheld and no spring rains have fallen…”
Jeremiah 3:2-3 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: The Prophet Jeremiah, speaking on behalf of the Lord, equates idolatry with prostitution. Seeking ultimate pleasures from sources other than the Lord Himself is spiritual adultery. It means that we give ourselves to other things, hoping to fill empty places in our lives that only god can truly fill. This spiritual adultery can take many forms, such as giving ourselves to our work or even to ministry in a way that replaces our devotion to Christ. It can mean looking to worldly systems and methodologies as the ultimate solution, instead of looking to the Lord. Seeking guidance from Christian leaders without seeking the Lord is also spiritual adultery. When something displaces our love and faith in the Lord, it becomes an idol in our lives. Jeremiah states that this kind of idolatry can affect even God’s creation that provides the spring rains. True healing and restoring of the land can come only as idolatry is replaced with pure love and affection for the Lord.

Worship the Lord as the One who fills every need.
Affirm to the Lord your desire that He be first in every area of your life.
Don’t let up! Give the Lord permission to point our every area of idolatry in your life.
Pray that our church will remove every idol of ministry, personality, or methodology.
Pray for the Holy Spirit to help you discern ways that Satan has tried to seduce you away from the Lord Jesus.
Pray that believers in our city will have hearts of pure devotion to the Lord.
Praise the Lord that His jealousy for us comes from His desire that we walk in healing and restoration.

Brian Park Senior Pastor Bridges Christian Fellowship
Riverside, CA 92506
951-782-0200

this really hit hard and i think i need to read/mediatate more on it~DARED TO MOVE
This is not the first time "spiritual adultary" has been brought to my attention. we had an wonderful woman "birdie" that once mentored me for a very short season and this was brought to my attention then I was blind and didn't get it sometimes i think i did but i must not have learned deep enough for here it is again. I Pray oh precious Lord that i would always remain not just loyal to you but that my desires for other pleasures or means to cover my pain would be bound by you and the you would keep me from temptations and continue to provide that hedge of protection around me and my family. bind the evil one from ours lives both spiritual and physically. AMEN

that reminds me of my neighbor that stopped by yesterday to check on me. She has a very strong accent so sometimes i missed what she was saying but my point:

she was afraid when she saw the "police activity" when she walked by my husband, not knowing who he was at first, she said she couldn't even look at him for long, she felt that he was bad, she felt evil and just wanted to hurry past him. But my daughter was out there and proud of her daddy and said HI to he and tried to introduce them but my neighbor didn't want to stop and just nodded. At first she was concerned that my girl was with him. we chatted a while and she along with me and others i have counseled with agree, GOD IS IN CONTROL. It's up to HIM. we prayed that He would protect her, that we agreed in Him being able to make the court decission and the judge make the words come and in agreement again we said i have done all that i can~~ GIVEN IT TO HIM
may i stop taking it back and REST IN HIM Oh LORD i PRAY PLEAD for your peace and comfort to COVER ME AND MY BABY!!!! lET ME do the right (righteous) thing let your words come from my mouth today and always especially on the 20th let your ways be my ways stop these tears i pray i don't want swollen eyes anymore i want your PEACE TO INDWELL MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PTL another blessing just came down got to RUN 70 minutes to get ready and be in another county to go see a premire or not but new movie .....bevery hills cauhua. i don't know the name and i can't spell PTL FREE

Gods Timing is Always Perfect! ??

twice in the last week my on line banking has been compromised and my password has been changed and blocked by the bank twice *currently can't get on to it.. Now my email account won't open says "log in error"can't get on to it.
my estranged husband took our youngest child out of state using a court order he got deceitfully and she went willingly, no happily. the Sargent in charge says to just think of it as a 2-3 week vacation with dad since our next court date is scheduled for the 20th.
Meanwhile the child is pulled out of school to go to another which will be the 5th school since Jan of this year. How is that thinking of the childs best interest when we left him and Neveda because of his emotional and verbal abuse? How is this God's perfect timing? Only HE knows and to be honest i am having a difficult time remember who God really is and how much He loves me and my whole family. I am really being dared to move.
I still praise Him for all the continued blessings we receive on a daily basis, my great job and RSM, all the things we take for granted: car, home, food, shelter......it has only been 3 1/2 months since the school district no longer considered me and the girls "homeless". i have only been working for 4 1/2 months and this is the first "real Job" i have had since starting a new family. (kinda) well...i worked for the parent company 8 years ago for 14 months to pay for private school for the girls, but that didn't work so i started my own business, "in Home Child Care". that really was a JOB in every sense of the word. My point is that in 13 years i haven't had a professional position with an outside company and am blessed to have this job and many blesses are coming through this job.....but .......God's timing is perfect??? I am feeling shaken even still. Eph 6:13 is on my dry erase board: (and was when the female "Peace Office" came in to watch me and make sure all was good and she even told me to look up and read my own writing on the wall......"that is all you need" she said)
Eph 6:13
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

Am i doing everything? Is it me? is she really okay and in a good place? am i suppose to "let go"?

Eph 6:14
Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
Eph 6:15
and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
Eph 6:16
In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
Eph 6:17
Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
Eph 6:18
And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
Eph 6:19
Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel,
Eph 6:20
for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.

dared to move

Defilement by Idolatry

“ Son of man, when the people of Israel were living in their own land, they defiled it by their conduct and their actions…So I poured out my wrath on them… because they had defiled it with their idols. I dispersed them among the nations, and they were scattered… I judged them according to their conduct and actions.”

Ezekiel 36:17-19 (NIV)

Prayer Focus: Even though the Israelites had known God’s protection and restoration, they still defiled the land by their idol worship. They turned their hearts away from God and chose to live evil lifestyles, offering their allegiance and devotion to other gods. We may believe that idol worship is just an ancient practice or that it happens only in more pagan nations and therefore no longer applies to the Church today. But how does God define idol worship? An idol is anything that comes before the Lord Jesus Christ in our hearts and affections. An idol can be a devotion to leisure activities, or a desire to make more money, own a larger home, or drive a more expensive car. An idol might also be a person, a love interest, a spouse, a celebrity, or even a Christian ministry personality who becomes a greater focus in our lives that the Lord Himself. Freeing our lives from the defilement of idol worship will bring us into closer relationship with God and closer to the healing of our land.

Worship the Lord in pure devotion to Him alone.
Humble yourself before the Lord and let Him show you everything that has replaced your affections for Him.
Confess all idols that God reveals to you.
Repent of any idolatry, and rededicate yourself to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ above all else.
Pray that believers will see clearly and repent of any idolatrous things that have come before the Lord.
Pray that leaders will teach and live this truth from the Word under the anointing of the Holy Spirit.
Pray that fresh and vibrant love for the Lord Jesus will move across the church in your city, freeing people from even the most subtle of idols.

WOW !! Very Powerful words! "Dared Me to Move"

HERE I AM TO WORSHIP

Light of the World You step down into darkness
Open my eyes let me SEE
Beauty that made this heart adore YOU
Hope of a life spent with YOU

Here I am to worship.
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God

You're altogether Lovely
Altogether Worthy
Altogether Wonderful
Altogether Merciful
Altogether Beautiful


PRAYER: that this day as "Dared to Move" we would bow before the Lord and Ask to SEE Him and His ways. That we would be broken and molded to His likeness. Your Spirit to Guide Us to Your Likeness, We give You all Power to make this change in us as we are too weak on our own.

One of the missing components on this "BLOG" is my music.
I want a daily song to play and/or a list the can be clicked by visitors.
HOW? PLEASE HELP!