AWAKE MY SOUL So that CHRIST CAN BE MADE IN ME

When I close my eyes
I can see Your glory
When I raise my hands
I can touch your face
When I bow my knees
I stand before You
And Christ is formed in me
Awake my soul prepare an entrance for Your glory
And let my heart become a throne for You to dwell
And when I need Your Holy Spirit more than life itself
Then Christ is formed in Me
When I lose myself I reflect Your image
When I break, break my will, then I am whole
When I give, give my all, I find life everlasting.
Then Christ is formed in me

Chorus (3x)

Awake my soul prepare an entrance for Your glory
And let my heart become a throne for You to dwell
And when I need Your Holy Spirit more than life itself
Then Christ is formed in me

The above version i know by Phillips, Craig an Dean could not find a link for the actual music to play sorry. It is very powerful though. read it as a prayer as i must do the same today.

Lord please awake my soul, release this sin that lives in me lest i do not hear that trumpet sound at Your Mighty call on that day.

I have many times thought i was a "David" as he was madly in love in God and wanted to honor Him always but fell in the mud a lot. different sin. but every time he seemed to being doing well with the Lord he'd fall again maybe worse than the time before. In a radio lesson yesterday i heard that he had many sins naming some off, but when the teacher said 'Anger' i was shocked. sorry my bad, i guess i don't know David as well as i thought, or maybe just not the bible in a whole? anyway Anger has been my issue for a few years now. I have learned it is a 'righteous anger' but i still fall into sin but handling it ungodly, without righteousness.
So i did a good show again last night with X. i was short and brief but just to see his face makes me boil. why can't i move on? why can't i forgive? Awake my Soul oh Lord and let me live again! as i pray for His Peace, sing songs try to listen (too much clutter to hear) my tears swell from crying again. At least its not daily i say, at least the girls don't see and difinitley not arguing on a daily basis, as before.
i just thought of a friend's recent email with a scripture let's go find it. :)


Phil 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving , present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

hmmm, not what i was think, i am trying but it seems that i am in sin and can't hear Him or feel Him let's look for something else too.

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 3:13-14 (NKJV)

Prayer Focus: It is worth it to abandon everything for the sake of Christ! Paul learned this firsthand in his desperate desire for Christ to be glorified through his life. Paul abandoned everything, including his personal comfort, worldly possessions, and eventually his life. Paul was willing to learn how to suffer with Christ, sharing in His death and ultimately in His resurrection (vs. 10-11). If we really believe that God’s desire is for the transformation of our city and the healing of our land, then we must commit ourselves to walk in complete obedience. If God has called us to participate in this grandest of callings-the salvation of people and the restoration of His creation-then what hinders us from abandoning ourselves to this calling? Paul stood before King Agrippa and said: “I was not disobedient to the heavenly vision” (Acts 26:19 NKJV). Let us join with Paul in abandonment to obedience to the heavenly calling of transformation.

Worship God as the One who is worthy of our worship.
Give praise to the Lord for His heavenly calling on you.
Confess the ways that you have strayed from His calling.
Recommit yourself to a life of abandonment with expectation, believing that God will fulfill His Word.
Pray for the Lord to call our believers to live boldly with abandonment and expectation.
Pray that leaders in our church and community will commit themselves to lead with radical obedience.
Worship and adore the Lord for calling you into extreme hope and expectation for the healing of our land. Tell the Lord how much you believe His is worthy of your abandonment to Him!


Excerpts taken from Focus on the Family, “Heal our Land” devotional

Sounds like good advise. Just get over it on move forward. let's try that.
but i can't stop there
"but is it really that easy?" "you'll just think about it later" spiritual warefare...."Jesus will you get that for me" answer that door and send it away.