Bad Day

I am Really having a Bad Day! I just realized it's after 1 and i didn't make it out to the stores today. I got some work done but not nearly enough yet.
I'm crying again, those Darn Hormones! This age thing is REALLY Gettin On My last Nerve! I'm taking my supplements, I went out and got some dancin' in (i love to dance~ it's the lyrics of todays music i don't like), got a hair cut that worked great for a day or 2, colored it again (to hide the gray) OH my goodness, i was just reminded that i am complaining again! My God Forgive me for my grumblling......
Should i erase it all?
I had a thought when i started this...........
It was about family................
what was it????

I think i need to Dwell in His Word and Love a bit more....(i re-read this mornings journal and it was really good, the tears flowed again though, what's up this is still ridunckulous!!)
I think i just feel Alone!

My girls are crying out for their dad and i just want a man by my side. I keep telling myself He is My Husband Now. Why is that not enough? Here i go again asking questions........WHY???????????


Day By Day By Grace Bob Hoekstra May 12th Liberty by the Holy Spirit
Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. (2 Corinthians 3:17)
As we have seen, the old covenant of law produces spiritual bondage in those who attempt to live under it. The remedy for that bondage is the new covenant of grace, because it produces spiritual liberty. This liberty is a work of the Holy Spirit. "Now the Lord is the Spirit." The life-giving Lord of grace is the Spirit of God: "the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life" (2 Corinthians 3:6).

Living by rules and regulations ("of the letter") has a deadening, binding spiritual effect on people. This is how the Pharisees "ministered." "For they bind heavy burdens, hard to bear, and lay them on men's shoulders" (Matthew 23:4). Jesus came to liberate people, to set them free. This is why Jesus ministered by the Holy Spirit. "The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor. He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives and recovery of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed" (Luke 4:18). As Jesus, the Son of God, humbly served the Father, the Holy Spirit empowered Him to rescue captives, to release the oppressed.

Rescuing people from sin and unrighteousness is the fundamental, liberating work of Jesus. "And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness" (Romans 6:18). Now, we are free to grow in a life of righteousness. Our new-found freedom is not for personal indulgence. It is for service of the Lord. "As free, yet not using your liberty as a cloak for vice, but as servants of God" (1 Peter 2:16). Now that we are free, we can use our freedom to lovingly minister to others. "For you, brethren, have been called to liberty; only do not use liberty as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another" (Galatians 5:13).

Another wonder of Christ's rescuing, liberating work is that He wants to save us from self-dependent striving to develop a life of godliness and loving service. He accomplishes this by the work of the Holy Spirit. "For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death" (Romans 8:2). As we walk in humble dependence, the Holy Spirit imparts to us the life that is in Christ Jesus. This liberates us from the tendency to rely upon fleshly human resources, which are inadequate (due to sin and spiritual deadness).

Dear God of all spiritual liberation, I praise You for setting me free from sin and the service of self. Now I ask You to work in and through me by Your Holy Spirit, setting me free from self-striving in my service of You, in Jesus' name, Amen.

Well that's what i got from Blue Letter Bible. One paragraph hit me well other than that my mind wandered....really think A>D>D> RUNS in me and my girls!

Pray for us as we all have voids in our hearts! the girls is for the love and attention of their father. Mine? I am not sure! relationship Yes! him, i don't think so. i still have that silly guilt thing going on though! WHY?

PRAISE GOD!!!!

He is so into me! and Providing for me!! He just had my bestest friend call me as i was balling my eyes out and she asked if i was ditchin' I said I"M CRYIN" she went on with the reason of her call, allowed me to whine a bit, (WE both Hate Whiners!)
said stop whinin' and get with it we hung up and it's all good!
Have a blessed day!