TOO much going on in one head

I have had many thoughts that i need to be journalling again, more importantly daily devotionals with my GOD!
But many thoughts are rambling and not sure which ONE i am to focus on; So being me i don't do anything for fear of choosing the wrong one.

Let's list some things:

Mr. L moved back to CA~ good thing? better for girls? too many thoughts already.

Work! I love it but above what did i say? "But many thoughts are rambling and not sure which ONE i am to focus on; So being me i don't do anything for fear of choosing the wrong one."
scary

Compassion~ im not, and need to be?

Lonely but not alone??

Family, sister, brother, mom, sibling rivalry why?

Friends? where?

GOALS! to many where to start.

so much more and then GOD in His all knowing ways sends people into my life and tells me to make Goals. Don't you have to know what you want first~ I feel like a kid still in Kindergarten. Equals my writing and spelling capabilities anyway. Oh i'm just a bad typest that's it. LOL I still crack myself up though!

Live and let live?

So give me a verse oh Lord! Fill me with Your Spirit and Let Your Joy and Peace Reign in my life again!

So i go to a devoitonal page and it's JOB, Why is it always Job? Another million thoughts. (A.D.D. i think) well lets see what the commentator says....

"I know that my Redeemer liveth." — Job 19:25


The marrow of Job's comfort lies in that little word "My"--"My Redeemer," and in the fact that the Redeemer lives. Oh! to get hold of a living Christ. We must get a property in Him before we can enjoy Him. What is gold in the mine to me? Men are beggars in Peru, and beg their bread in California. It is gold in my purse which will satisfy my necessities, by purchasing the bread I need. So a Redeemer who does not redeem me, an avenger who will never stand up for my blood, of what avail were such? Rest not content until by faith you can say "Yes, I cast myself upon my living Lord; and He is mine." It may be you hold Him with a feeble hand; you half think it presumption to say, "He lives as my Redeemer;" yet, remember if you have but faith as a grain of mustard seed, that little faith entitles you to say it. But there is also another word here, expressive of Job's strong confidence, "I know." To say, "I hope so, I trust so" is comfortable; and there are thousands in the fold of Jesus who hardly ever get much further. But to reach the essence of consolation you must say, "I know." Ifs, buts, and perhapses, are sure murderers of peace and comfort. Doubts are dreary things in times of sorrow. Like wasps they sting the soul! If I have any suspicion that Christ is not mine, then there is vinegar mingled with the gall of death; but if I know that Jesus lives for me, then darkness is not dark: even the night is light about me. Surely if Job, in those ages before the coming and advent of Christ, could say, "I know," we should not speak less positively. God forbid that our positiveness should be presumption. Let us see that our evidences are right, lest we build upon an ungrounded hope; and then let us not be satisfied with the mere foundation, for it is from the upper rooms that we get the widest prospect. A living Redeemer, truly mine, is joy unspeakable.

Okay a few things hit. but i got stuck for a moment on the mustard seed.

I am a Woman of Faith, No doubt until i doubt of course.
But the whole Mustard Seed Faith, to me, is more about the tiniest of seeds grows without thought, blooms without worry, provides without care of being "Mine", and doesn't it grow to a large tree(?). That is BIG Faith not little faith. So am I a woman of Faith? Yes! But i must remember to put my faith in HIM as i have been lately focusing on ME which doesn't allow HIS Faith to Bloom/Blossom, grow.....u know

Another soul has told me multiple times lately that they look at me and see HIS FAITHFULNESS in me. Yes i am blessed many times over! and i Pray to turn every blessing back to Praise; But the key word again is HIS Faithfullness and my ability to be Faithful not just to Him in return but to HAVE Complete Faith in HIM and to Stand in HIM. I keep telling myself that i do stand in Him and haven't stopped. Why then do i have so many questions? Why am i not moving? O the song just came to me .....

Casting Crowns


If We Are The Body Lyrics
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It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

Chorus (2x)
If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way


Wow Did i not just say that He is sending people to me? He is teaching but am I learning?