still alive and kicking= maybe that's the problem...

...Kickin'

many, no too many thoughts are going through this ole head the past couple of days.

Spiritual warfare? Maybe. still listening to lessons via radio as i drive and drive and did i say drive? still listen and worship in the morning as i start me day. (that was the irish coming out). Mr L. is still in my live and as much as i wish, hope and pray to see Gods work in him and a changed heart in a person, i don[t and a friend, no lots of people have said he will never change. but as jesus would not give up and died on the cross, i have to keep praying for him to drawer closer to christ and be more christ like to his family. But most of all I have to stay focused on HIM.

i am begining to wonder what that really means? Focus on Him? i heard a couple of comments on that yesterday and the day before. It makes me think that i really don't know how to focus only on HIM. i am self centered. Oh NO Not ME>
yes it does seem to be so.
my spirit is crying again. lately i have had a few times when a couple of tears form and sometimes fall, but i have a complete sense that these are The Spirits tears not mine. Sometimes tears of joy and sometimes pained tears. so is this a new avenue for me to experience? focusing on HIM and being one with His Spirit?

we will see.....

I am humanly tired again, and the job that i still Love is a weight on me as i feel behind in the piles of paperwork i need to file and the organization i lack. all the things i want to do and get accomplished seem out of reach.....

My middle child is doing so much better. it is still a work in progress, a few steps forward with a few more back sometimes. this can be tiring too. Not to fall back into the ways of the past in family issues. easy to blame others and then see that the others aren't here and there are still "things" happening.

My hands and feet are both really bad. and i don't feel so bad; most of the time. i did wake up on the down side today but i am a woman and that could have something to do with it.

i just want to go back to bed actually :) so i better get in the shower and wake up!


You Never Let Go Matt Redman/ click the link

Matt Redman - You Never Let Go
From the album Passion 06: Everything Glorious

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I’m caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won’t turn back
I know You are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

Chorus:
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We’ll live to know You here on the earth

Chorus:

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

Chorus: (2x’s)

Matt 5:40 And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well.
41 If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles.
42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
43 "You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor [fn] and hate your enemy.'
44 But I tell you: Love your enemies [fn] and pray for those who persecute you,
45 that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.
46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that?
47 And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?
48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.


I continue to stand and say, "I want what i get for I am in His Hands and His Will. If anything evil does come against me and He has allowed it i Know that i will be blessed double in the end! Lord i pray that you would be the center of my universe. I pray for your protection this day as i feel weak and weary and don't know what is in store today but you do. Lord a hedge of protection please!